Bad News

We found out early Friday evening that my husband's cancer is no longer in remission. It stinks. In my head, I know that Romans 8:28 is true, but I'm not feeling it in my heart. I don't want to go through this again - the treatment, the feeling lousy. The strain it puts on me to transport Phil to treatment. It's been a terrible couple of months for me, with my fibromyalgia giving me more pain, stiffness and fatigue than I've had previously. I can only hope that I will feel better once it's warmer.

If you're interested, you can visit the Multiple Myeloma Research Foundation or International Myeloma Foundation for information on Multiple Myeloma and treatments. You can also go to Phil's Caring Bridge site and read the journal I've kept on Phil since June 6, 2006 (nearly six months after his initial diagnosis on Dec. 16, 2005.)

To this promise I must cling.